Stuck in the past

It's been ages since I updated this blog. Even the christmas ornaments wallpaper remains half a year after the celebration. I like the wallpaper... maybe I'll change it after this year's christmas. Such a lazy bum. : D

Today I turn 24. Gee... I feel old. Felt like I haven't achieved much in life the way I wanted it to be a decade ago.

Back then, I wanted:

• To work as an executive in a company or to become a marine biologist. Oh, I've always wanted to become a journalist~! Totally random.  
• To travel the world and see other people's culture, architecture and art. Also to eat good food all around the world. 
• To cut off fat from waist, arm, leg, etc... 

Point #1, I'm not saying that I hate my job. It's just I never thought of becoming a teacher but now that I am, I can't lie and say that there are absolutely nothing about it that I like. Sure, we all have certain things in our job that we hate, right? Surely there are.

Point #2, Yes, I've been to other countries apart from home but I haven't gone to the places I really wanted like Japan, France (maybe watch Roland Garros? hohoho), Spain, New York, South Korea, London, etc... Relying on my current salary would mean I'd have to starve once I get there. Boo hoo...

Point #3, Ermm... let's not discuss this.

But I'm not a total wreck, I am thankful that I:

• Have a job to pay the bills and have fun (but not to travel! Maybe I'd have to sell my kidney just so I can get my bum to France like that kid in China who sold his kidney to buy an iPad). 
• Mostly, at 24, I'm grateful that I still have the love of my family and friends. 

p/s: last night I found out that my SPP interview is this Wednesday. Wow... what a great bday present. Just great. I haven't done my reading yet~! Grrr... 

Perfect Nightmare

I can't really recall my past nightmares but this morning's nightmare err, morningmare was very disturbing for me.

I've been having several bad dreams 3 nights in a row. Damn... that can't be good.

I may be traumatized by the colour blue after the dream.

The setting was in our previous home. A quarters where my dad used to work before he retired. The house was blue in colour.

I was there with two of my loved ones and apparently there's a zombie outbreak. The difference is, the zombies weren't trying to eat you, they were killing people by breaking their neck. I can actually hear the sounds of neck breaking. That's the most scary thing. Let's not call them zombie, call them the neck breakers.

I was wearing a blue shirt and one of my loved ones was also wearing a blue shirt. The three of us tried to run away from the zombies that got into our house when the two sacrifices their lives for me to survive. I can see it vividly how the zombie broke their neck as I ran. I was soooooo sad when the lifeless body of my loved ones fall to the ground, hearts not beating.

As I was running, the neck breakers were trying to catch me but they were too slow. If anyone knew me, they'll know that I'm not much of a runner. I was so scared for the neck breakers made eerie sounds like, "Errgh..." and "aaarrgh..." much like zombies.

Before they could catch up to me, I woke up with a jerk. As I woke up, I can't help but wonder about my loved ones. I wanted to call but the clock shows 4.40am.    

Anyway, my sister told me that when you have a bad dream, you should tell them to others so as to push all the bad luck away. Hohoho

Shuu bad luck, shuu~!

Please stop the night/morningmares... give me some happy dreams instead. : )

Of illusions and dreams

I’ve been having weird dreams lately. Peculiar than déjà vu huhu…

You see, my daily working routine is waking up at 5.40am to boil some water for my bath. Hey, the water is ice cold okay~! Then after turning the fire on, I’d stagger back to bed and try to sleep until my second alarm rings at 5.50am. That’s when my day truly starts.

Yesterday, I did the old routine of switching off my 5.40 am alarm and got up to turn the fire on the stove to boil a kettle of water. Then I returned to bed and napped, waiting for my second alarm to ring. Sounds normal, right? Right???

I jerked in bed and realized I was just dreaming. I laughed as I realized what had just happened. It totally got me confused at first. My socks were still on and my bedroom door was still closed, tell tale signs that I didn’t got up and turned on the stove.

Seconds of laughing at myself, my alarm rang. A very interesting way of waking up, I guess.   

Ain't it funny?

Coincidences.


It fascinates me sometimes.

In the morning, my friend told me about a room for rent in a house where a 40 year old lady teacher lives.

In the afternoon, my cousin told me about a room for rent where a 40 year old lady teacher lives. My cousin’s friend was living in the room but moved out because she was transferred to her hometown.

5 minutes later, I went to wash my car in a car wash place. I saw a lady about a couple of years older than me. I can tell she was a teacher. I dunno… you just have this instinct if you saw someone and can tell that they’re a teacher huhu anyway, she had one glance at me and asked, “Are you a teacher?” hehe I dunno whether I’m glad or not that she recognized me as a teacher too.

She then said, “Are you from KK?” I nodded and answered, “Yes” simultaneously.



“Are you Jessie’s cousin?” Everything clicked and we laughed.

What a small world. To meet her there was so amusing to me. We chatted till her car was ready. She said the house where the room is at is complete with tv, washing machine, icebox, etc… And how when she was posted here, she was given a school so far from town the phone reception is zero.

She cried for two weeks before she accepted her fate. I am fortunate enough to be posted near town.

This story will have a great ending if I end up living in the house where a 40 year old lady teacher lives. I can’t go there when my daddy and mummy have already bought me an icebox, rice cooker and a stove in KK.

“It’s a shame…” I said as I exited the car wash. Had my cousin told me about this yesterday, I would’ve gone to live with the 40 year old lady teacher.

Oh great… a cursed escaped my mouth as I switched on the wiper.

I suppose it’s just a coincidence that it rains just after my car is squeaky clean, eh?

360 degrees of fireworks.

Happy Chinese New Year everyone~! It's the year of the rabbit and guess who's born under this chinese zodiac? hohoho moi. Yours truly. Yeah you got the idea, it's me~! Huhuhu

I was at my aunty's house on CNY eve and at midnight, the sky was so beautiful~! If you look up the sky and turn 360 degrees, everything you see is fireworks hohoho I regretted not bringing a better camera. This is shot with my handphone.

My aunt's Chinese neighbour launched their firework and it was a first for me to watch fireworks directly below it. It was magical and my mouth just wouldn't shut as I gawked at the kaleidoscope of colors. 

I hope this year will be a year full of wealth, good health, harmony and love all around. For me and for you.

This is quite a special year for me because this year marks the first ever year of working. I found out that I'll be teaching in Tambunan, about 1 1/4 hour from Donggongon. Lots of people can get there in 1 hour but not me hahaha I'm such a slow driver.

I hope the school can be reached by Mr. Grey Myvi hohoho hope there's a phone line, electric and water. I'm demanding too much eh?

I'm eager to know where I'm posted at hohoho heard the letters will arrive this monday.

Happy CNY everyone~!

 

It's short~!

I've been having long hair for so long.

The reason I don't cut it shorter than my shoulder is because my hair is thick. I'm afraid it'll go berserk. Berserk as in it'll go really kembang. Think like a lion's mane. Hahaha

But after my sister cut her hair short, it looked nice. She has thick hair too, the only thing we have in common because we absolutely don't look alike~! Rest assure, we were not picked up from the drain or something. My sister looks like my mummy and I am a carbon copy of my daddy.

Because time is insanely ample these days thanks to me being not posted yet, I cut my own hair the other day. Not the whole thing, just my bangs (thank God~!)

Passpot photo hahaha complete with blue background. Heh, this one may look okay. Wait till you see the side view.

There it is~! I'm sorry the pictures aren't that good in quality. All of my pics in this post is taken from my phone camera. Bida betul rambut depan tu~!

 

At some point, I can see the resemblence between Abu Bakar Ellah and I wakakakakaka XD

Anyway, I decided to just cut my hair short to fo with the short bangs I marvelously created for myself. Went to a salloon in Tuaran because cutting hair in KK is soooooo pricey~!

Besides, I have a bad experience here in Donggongon. The guy looked professional but when he cut my hair, he used a flat iron (maybe because my hair is originally curly, he couldn't cut it evenly, but I don't know... I just ruined my bangs) AND my hair turned out butt ugly~! Damn that guy.

I wish I could hurt him with laser eyes.

Some hairstylists just don't get how to handle hair like mine. Another reason I don't fancy going to salloons. They just complaint that I've got really thick and curly hair and do a really bad job at it. They charge extra for that too~! I'd pay with a wide smile if they did a good job at it but sadly they don't.

A salloon in Tuaran knows how to handle my hair though... that's why I like it there. Well, I found out through Facebook that a schoolmate of mine opened a salloon in Tuaran but I couldn't find it so I just went to my regular salloon.

Freshly cut~! So short~!!! Hohoho

When I went out with Dudu to watch Gulliver's Travels last Monday. Short hair have a lot of perks... I use less shampoo and it dries faster huhu

I now have the greatest respect for barbers and hairstylists alike for your great talent of making people's hair pretty.

Happy New Year a day too late

Hi~!

Happy New Year 2011. The first few days of the year will be a bit confusing yeah? We'll be writing the year as 1.2.2010 because we're still used to writing 2010. Hohoho (Or is it just me?)

What's your new year resolution? Huuu.... This year I ain't got no resolution. I know myself very well that I won't keep it. Like last year, I said I wanted to save a lot of money off my allowance but naaaaah, I couldn't do it. Too much temptation and I'm so weak hahaha

Talking about money, tomorrow is the start of school and if my studies weren't complete yet, I'd be worrying over going to class tomorrow. But, if I'm still a student, I'd be looking forward to the semester allowance instead of now, jobless and moneyless. *sigh sigh*

2010 for me was enlightening.

I lived in an apartment with 5 other BFFs.

Celebrated all of our birthdays like this huhu

Went mandi sungai with them when our apartment had no water supply hoho

I have a car of my own~! Last month he was dented but recovered quickly~!

Went to the Philippines with my friends.

I like this~!

Busy and sick of doing my action research and finally presenting it in front of panels and audience. Was very scared.

I must've talked like a ghost is trying to catch me. I tend to speak really fast when I'm nervous huhu

Made a record of the worst gambling lost in my gambling history.


Finished my 5 1/2 years of degree. (But still have not been posted)

Was touched with my students who cried when my practical was over.

A pic Britney edited

Got better at baking thanks to my sister.


Finally swam without any help from anything or anyone~!

Got addicted to SHINee wahaha



I hope 2011 will be a good year for all of us. May the new year grace us with love, good health and wealth.